Time and again I make a pledge to myself
no more sins!
But alas,
on a daily basis,
small sins get accumulated
in the humdrum of daily existence.
How can I refrain?
I am hardly myself;
I am the sum total of so many,
with whom my life is entwined.
They do not refrain.
So occasionally I cannot refrain.
Shall I get a chance to attain Shivahood
in the small time left to me
in this life?
How many more lives
with how many more,
I wonder
for the goal of Shivahood!
