Yesterday in Yoga class
We were praying to Guru Ram Das
And among all the other mess
I asked to get rid of my childishness
And the tears were running down my cheeks
And my tee-shirt was soaked with slimy streaks
I was mentally bowing to a spiritual father
Asking for my life to be moving farther
I can feel my life taking it’s own course
And I have been healing my old sores
But among all the hurts which are healing
I’ve been given too many cards to be dealing
There were so many deals I could have been sealing
But instead
I am sitting on my bed,
Staring at my ceiling.
Some chances in life are only given once
If you don’t see you miss your only chance
And life’s mystery seals all the doors real fast
It gives you a different life,
Opportunities passed.
Something inside of my stomach revolts
Something is telling me to move on
Let me be hit with a thousand volts
But what I was holding a string to is gone
Something is waiting for me nearby
Something I wished for my whole life
Something to which I have said good-bye
Now so strongly becoming mine.
Is it because my life is insisting
My wonderful mind is resisting?
Something is telling me to reach out
Something impossible, too far out
My will is shaking
My mind is breaking
My stomach is queasy
I chose what’s easy
I want to cry
But I take what’s mine
For the first time try
I know what’s mine
And it’s not too small
To take control
It is sized just right
Something I could actually bite.
