As I ponder the verses of my favorite poem by Rod McKuen, I ask myself – Did I really know you would find me? I raced through my teen years believing there was someone special, someone unique that would fulfill all my needs .....but I did not find you. Once I thought I had found you.....and yes..... I did love and have been loved by others..... but I always felt that something was missing ....that there was a void that others along my life's path could not fill .....no matter how hard they tried or how desperately I wished they would. I had almost given up hope of finding you, I feared my search for you was based on fairy tale endings and a young girls hopes and dreams for a love that came with understanding, patience ....and the ability to fill that void That forever made me feel incomplete. In my disappointment....I told myself.... I must be unworthy .....after all, I had searched for you, tried to find substitutes for you ....and waited patiently for you to find me. So I gave up, only ....you did find me and that void is now filled. I am complete. The unconditional love I knew I could give #and the joy in giving that love fulfills me as nothing ever has. I am content.....for I know, if I do live to reach 90 years, as the fortune teller predicted, when I am old and alone with only my cats for companionship.... I can take out the memories of time spent with you ....and smile with the feelings of love and contentment, ....and know I once had what most search a lifetime for and never find. As Mr. McKuen said: "It was for you I saved the best for last"
