I Don't Believe in Swearing

I don't believe in swearing
but still I did
This, throughout my life,
was the costliest bid

I chose my coffin self
And shut my mouth zipped
Only my heart does know
How badly it got ripped

Mind got numb of thoughts
Truth came and peirced my eyes
Words could not come off throat
Feelings choked me all inside

I never do it this way
This time had to be done
Believe me in such pain
There has to be no fun

I did it out of love
and yes I don't regret
But I if do be honest
I am feeling very sad

In name of all my love
Oh ... I promised  things!
But, yes I will fulfill
Though impossile it seems