So many things could be,
But as they usually never materialise,
Then this is just how it is,
Life's permutations,
Infinite numbers of circumstances calculated,
And all because of this, I'm here.
But thank God
Child like disappointment has long since left me,
I remember the pain so clearly.
I'm trying to think when it actually disappeared,
Ten......fifteen years ago......maybe less?
Anyway, I've designed a formula,
To work out what the diminished disappointment
Effect has had on me.......and this is it,
Enjoyment in Life = excitement x disappointment
So deducing from this equation,
The more excitement and disappointment,
The bigger the Enjoyment,
Therefore, the smaller the disappointment,
The smaller the Enjoyment?
Yet interesting, the excitement level have also fallen,
At same time as my disappointment level dropped?
Thus I conclude from my calculations,
I need extra excitement to counter,
The loss in disappointment,
In order to retain my Enjoyment in Life level?
But how?
That's it! That's it!! I've got it!!!
Tomorrow.......I'm going to go and buy myself something!!!
